Monday, February 4, 2013

hei darlings..

i told myself,2013..will b a good year to me..
u all nak tau,rumah i da siap..
ya,took quiet long..biase leee,mcm2 problem
tukang nak raya la,wireman xcukup bdk kje la,lantai pnye stol out la..
tp after long and long pnye tungu..
now,rumah i da tersergam indah..which i can call now..my home sweet home..

lame i senyap sunyi,no tambah ahli keluarga yet,
still mischa,me and our cahaya..hehe..bile lah nk berempat kannn..
pon mcm2 sebab la,hehe..

in life..biase la,mcm2 mission to accomplish..
mission nk kawin dah,mission ade anak dah..
mission ade rumah dah..what will b next kan..
hehe..

well ladies,i rili miss blogging and mbace story mory u all too..
start from now..i will b more update and rajinnnn kan diri..
sayang u,blog ni...ni nk tlis pon..agak awkward..
mcm baru bkenalan la..malu2 kucing..heheehhe

everyone..cahaya kirim salam,die ckp mwah mwah

 dua ni,anak2 yg bertuah..
 die mmg asik loratkan adik die
 me n cahaya
and here,my abg mischa..

Monday, October 29, 2012

the day she went away..

hello again ladies..hows everyone,me alhamdulilah sihat je..
the rest of the family pon all ok..
hei,nk tau x..instead of datuk n nenek cahaya tu jd puan and tuan..
now we may call them by haji kalam,and hajjah jamie tauu...
yes,syukur again mak and bak dpt g haji bsama..walau awal bak da xdpt..
dah jodoh kan,dah rezeki kan..mmg xkemana..
msti ada hikmah di sebalik rite?

he is the love of my heart walauuu,slalu kne argue 2 pendapat,merajuk,berdebat bsama!

each one of them stay in a very special place at my heart..ha,say hi to haji kalam yg npk macho in his ihram!no no no..assalamualaikum pak aji..
one happy news i dah share...and may i share hati yg lara news??
well..i lost dah sumone that also stay special at my heart,siape lg kalau bukan nenek i..
yes..nenek i dah meninggal dah :( mcm cannot jeee terima nk memangil her name with new tittle too..
ARWAH!!..Alfatihah utk nenek...

mmg ade hikmah bak n mak kne g lewat,bak n mak kne g ari sabtu..so a week before nenek masuk hospital..so ahad dah kluar wad,balik rumah pakcik i..nenek meningal selasa...while mak n mak kne g ari sabtu..
alhamdulilah,as anak lelaki bak dpt jugak menyempurnakan urusan pengebumian mak die..urusan semua kat rumah ktorg..so..time mlm..we bgilir2 baca kn nenek yasin smua..pg2..bilal dtg,org kg ktorg which noe nenek well la kann..sampai je trus diorg ckp "ohh nenek korg,paling baik org tua same la dgn datuk kau dlu"..hati siape x tersentuh,bile org yg disyg,disaat akhir pon dikenang atas kebaikan diorg kan..alhamdulilah..even dlm sedih hati senang dgr ckp2 yg mcmtu buat org2 kesayangan i...

the moment mandi kan nenek,me n my sis mmg da ckp ktorg nk sama2 mandikan nenek for her last shower..which means also saat2 hujung menyentuh kulit die badan die..so mandi kan nenek is the most touching moment..masa biase time weekend,mmg ktorg slalu spend time g jmpe nenek..klau lame x dtg,komfem die akn tertanye2 apsal lame x npk siti..apsal sarah lame xdtg,same jgk mcm cucu2 lain die..so time dtg ktorg bwk kn her fav ice cream..ha mmg mcm cahaya nenek niii!!manje sgt..so da mkn2 ice cream,mandikn die skali..mmg la nenek suka kepoci time mandikn die..sejuk la,baik2 tolak die kat wheelchair die la..kjap suruh amik sabun,kjap suruh shampoo rambut die..membebel jee..so hari last is like..oooh nenek,mmg la ini last i touch ur skin...and i wont ever see ur face again..to feel ur warm hugs,to feel ur tender kiss!!

selesai urusan nenek..rasa lega,semua sempurna..sempat la 3hari bak i buatkan tahlil,bacaan yasin utk mak die...wonder why we have such a great close relation dgn nenek,missing her same mcm hilang satu dahan berpaut..sbb nenek la org yg besarkn kitorg..yg urusankn hal ktorg..betapa manja nye cucu2 nenek..g skola berjemput tauuu...balik mkn dah siap,mak blik kje ptg tingal amik jee...

ok la,i lost sumone special of mine..time will cure it for sure..she lost in the world but of cos she is in my heart forever..

*may i share one sweet love story...ok,datuk i meningal 20years ago..such a long long time..oh he is one great man too!!!sedih xdpt bermany2 years dgn die...but still the little memory still fresh in us till now too..SO...between this 20yrs,byk la relatives i yg meningal jgk which one of them adik i,yg meningal masa mak lahirkn die...so..beside datuk ade one more space..which after 20tahun pon,no one filled there,until nenek come and fix that space..so now the husband and wife are together,lame kan datuk tungu nenek,20tahun tauuu!semoga datuk and nenek aman,tenang..love and miss u!kallau ade tentu diorg la org yg suka tgk keletah cicit2 diorg yg mmg pandai amik hati,yg menyakitkn hati,yg mencuit hati..ha mcm2 laa...hehe..

dis girl,tanye my sis "ibu knapa bak baling pasir pada moyang,habis kotor baju moyang"
then mak i,xfollow smpai ke kubur..then balik dri kubur cahaya ckp "nenek,moyang kan atas bukit  nek"..
mak i ckp..msti da besar cahaya akn ingt yg die tgk masa moyang meningal..cahaya baik sgt..mama mmg syg cahaya sgt..xmeragam,pandai bwk diri tau mama xbole nk layan mcm normal day..

i ajar die,bile smpai kubur moyang ckp "asalamualaikum moyang,cahaya dtg ni"..the way die ckp same mcm time ktorg g rumah moyang tgk moyang,beza nye cahaya,cahaya da xdpt lgi kiss seluruh muka..miss her really!

mak and bak inform yg diorg nk g haji,its a rutin in our family..nk g memane msti bgtau nenek..mcm dlu mak klau nk blik kg die kat muar..msti bgtau nenek jgk..mak n nenek da xmcm menantu..mak mmg syg ngn nenek...i adore how iklas nye kasih syg mak pd mak mertua die..i will do the same to my mak mertua,insyaallah..
*i amik gambau many2 as a kenangan masa hari2 terahir nenek,as our family pnye kenang2an..sesekali tgk..mmg mengalir air mata..oohhh,hati ni npk je mcm keras mcm xkesah,mcm xde perasaan..tpi deep inside its so fragile..and can break at anytime tau!!hei hei strong!!
ok gd nite ladies...cahaya kirim slm semua..siap bg kiss mwahhh mwahhhhhhh!!

Monday, October 1, 2012

chipsmore

my mood ni pon same mcm biskut chipsmore kn..
kjap ade kjap x..hheehhee...

nk cerita kn sikit perangan/dialog si cahaya ...

aritu i pick cahaya from school kan..pastu lause ckp..
"today die kumpulkn kwn2 die..dia ajar mereka cakap jerman"..
so lpastu..weekend time we berfamily time..

so papa die ckp:
papa:sayang..who is the new german in cahaya school??
me:no la abang..no one..
papa:cahaya said me..papa,in my school also hae new german..
*so trus i teringt yg lause cite die ajau kwn die jerman...i told papa yg die ajau kwn2 die jerman..so papa said.."cahaya already become a teacher!'..with his proud face..nak2 sbb anak die ajau german

pastu..mase ktorg tgah duduk2 cite2..mikel tanye lgi..
mikel:sayang...lause not look so old rite..
me:why?????
mikel:cahaya said me lause is 74...
me:ooh...ya ya...
mikel:but she not look like she is 74,she looks younger rite..
me:ya abang!

***so much trust he puts in everything that spoke by his lil angel!smpai kdg ape cahaya ckp trus die dtg and fire kan i..geram kdg2 tau.

cahaya pgang hp..papa die dtg tanye..

papa:who u call??
cahaya: vikrammmm..
papa da buat muka x layan..
cahaya:hubby.....are u jeles??
of cos papa trus bla g dapur minum air..hehe

this minah smlm main layang2 dgn papa die..i got many things to do..

mak aji ni..die ckp "nenek..da besau nti..cahaya nk g haji"

us

now super jeles..die suruh i bgun,jgn baring kat papa die..lpas i bgun..trus die baring at the same spot..nak jugakkkk!!

ni la kwn i gaduh,kwn i bmnje,kwn dgr i meluah perasaan etc etc etc


ps-nenek cahaya dpt g mekah tahun ni..soon akn fly..so happy for her,yet so sad that we will miss her!
pss-my nenek,moyang cahaya now masuk hospital..due to sakit tua..so sad and afraid..takut of loosing her... :(

Monday, September 17, 2012

hello again!

why and why and whyyyyyyyyyyy??
pemalas gile ehh nk update blog??
i know why..semenjak dah berinstagram kann..
amik gmbau put a short caption easy breezy kan..
all done by ur small phone!

tpi dlm kepala..aduh blog ku yg kucintai..sabau naaaa!!
hehehehhee...

so all of us..mr papa,mama and cahaya all are ok!!
hope u all doin fine too!

so with cahaya perkembangan nye lpas blik europe,
now with dak mikel da converse like 80% in jerman..
how happy papa die??
199% da bapak die gumbira!

so while diorg kat sane,cahaya behave well..biase la..dah no choice..kne dgr ckp papa..
so bile balik sini..da mula mengada die..so papa ckp..
"so cahaya,welcome back to malaysia"...menyindir mama nye...hehe...

then bile mikel kat sane,mikel kne jugak buat kje..which die xbole bwk cahaya..
so mikel..a very complicated papa..buat advertisment for baby sitter..
mikel said me,nearly 30 application utk jd baby sitter anak ku..siap interview by papa lgi..
and till now,cahaya kadang2 cite andrea suka baca kn die buku mlm2..
while mak die,biase tgah2 bace2 msti i yg tertido..tinglkn die sorg..
my bad!

well..stop sini dlu..nti i update our conversation video..
tgk mak nenek mmbebel...
die suka ckp english dgn i..then bile i reply in english..die rase mama nye over..
so die ckp..
"mama..cakap la malaysia!!"

Friday, August 17, 2012

letter to my daughter

kehadapan anak ku cahaya maria,
yang kini berada di perantauan..yg amat kurindui..
mama,di sini sihat2 saje..
cuma sgt merindui cahaya..

mama,was single till im 23,and i celebrate raya with bak n nenek..and ibu n yaser..
its totally hari yg ditungu2..sbb utk bermaaf2an,amik gmbau and of cos nk duit raye kann...
but after i was married..papa join the club..
then then 2nd year..papa was at german,n mama celebrate dgn cahaya..but last year so happy sbb all of us was here..
but this year..u n ur papa is away!

of cos i understand its due on a delay,which u guys cant do noting..
what mama wish is just a very nice and safe journey to u n papa!!

mama must not b sad right...the most important person in my life..bak and nenek still here..
i dun know how long more i can salam tgn diorg di pagi raya...
but i pray,they will b here forever next with me n all of us!
mama,sad sbb xdpt nk enjoy hari raya with cahaya and papa..
ala but its okey laaa...
even sunyi sepi!!

lets imagine nti cahaya da kawin,n this year beraya uma husband die...
ehhh..mama da mula make story as the papa always said.."ur the story make,as usual"
hehehehhehehehe...

ok..dear cahaya,sila blajau lagu..ho ho ho balik kampung!!
and dear everyone here..selamat hari raya,mohon ampun dan maaf kalau spjg i tulis2 cerita ni ade menyingung mana2 hati,membuat sesiapa terasa,menyakitkn hati..atau anyting yg bad2 belaka..
i memohon sepuluh jari memohon keampunan yeee...
0-0 eehhh!!

here some pic of cahaya..utk sesiape yg myb merindui die..
on behalf of cahaya..hi dearie all aunt..selamat hari raya :)
senang dtg la rumah kite...

few days blik jerman..

when with papa..kne blakon jd good2..utk memancing hati papa die..

masa ni die da makin x hirau kn mama...
bile papa call me..ckp cahaya..mama nk ckp,die jwp..papa..i dun want
but die mmg xsuka sikit bckp d phone..same mcm mak die..xkuase nk bergayut di telefon!

melawat kwn2 di zoo!!

sooo sweet..so like a princess..
wahhh pandai blakon ya!

cahaya da mencuri hati uncle david,bestfren papa nye..
so sweet kannn!!

with dak oma..

and that one cousin cahaya...

sexy..mcm jenny from the block je syg!

ni charlotte....cousin juga..adik si milena tdi

sbb sebaya..so geng la!
**so its look like i da kne start blog blik..my star is back,even pagi raya xde..but its ok..haha,da brape byk i ckp but its ok..tu ayat mempositivekn diri tauu..hehe....

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

dear cahaya..

on ur very last day,to hug her was like a MUST..
mama mcm dun want to miss a thing jee..
mase pack baju die..menangis sorg2..nenek die tnye..
"apesal nk menangis pulak,mmg ko pon da tau mmg die nk bjln"..
nenek mmg!!

tpi on that day,si cahaya nk salam datuk die..die ckp.."arini xnk slm bak..so,sedikit sebanyak..feeling2 mood sedih xde..cahaya mmg,pandai belakon..xnk mood sedih2 kott...

so mase die nk jln pon just say..ok mama bye..that was our goodbye..

no tears,noting
and in few day she will come home..im waiting and xsabau dah ni!!

ps-the papa,since anak die ade dgn die..call i kdg2 2 hari sekali je,cube la anak die ade dgn i..every 2 minit kjap2 hp i busy!!...bile i buat2 merajuk..die pandai leee ckp this and that..ala xkesah la jnji dlm hati sentiase ingt :)

pss-ouchhh,i terase jangal plak nk start memblog balik..mcm keras kaku mcm kayu!!..cahaya will return and the mood is back!

Sunday, July 22, 2012

misteri kehilangan sarah kalam??

haha..poyo je kan misteri konon..
sbnarnye ade beberape masalah yg buat i xdpt nk update..
first week aritu i dok kl berkursus...lpastu da blik tu plak ade masalah negara kat ofis yg buat mood out of service trus!
pastu mood da baik..internet kat ofis plak menyakitkn hati...so so so...byk btol halangan i nk menceceh kan??
nk tingalkn blogging,i blom redi kot...byk nau kenangan bersame blog ni..between me,my cahaya,my family...i LOVE my public diary ni..hehehehe...
buat yg merindui..i reali miss u too!! :)

by the way,anak dara yg sorg da tingalkn mama nye..we r about 6000miles away by distance,but she stays in my heart forever...
some people ask..or my makcik2 tanye "rah,bole ko sorg mak biarkn anak g sebulan kan"..well,how i nak ckp xbole even i tau i akan deeply merindui anak i..sbb yg die follow tu bapak die,plus she got nenek on the other side yg juga ternanti2 nk jmpe die..i cant be so selfish since i choose to b with her papa..so this is the price yg i must pay..tpi nak sedapkan hati i slalu ckp "ala..sebulan..bukan lame ponnn"...

on the other side,its a good time too cahaya berhoiday sbb now she is not more my sopan santun baby girl tau..she is a hungry lion..and when she as a lion,mak nye as a tiger..ha mmg mcm wild life la ktorg..scary you...anak i mmg tgah stage menduga iman,mama nye kurang sabau..papa plis take over..and pasti kan when she returns she wild b as tame as a kitty... :)

kenottyan die mcmne tau...bile me/nenek/bak tgah tgk tv..die dtg laju2 die tutup pastu die lari...ade skali my internet kat rumah prob,tgah i call buat report..tgah ckp2 die bole cut my line..huh..mmg menguji kesabaran...
aritu kesian nenek cite,sbb gedik sgt..sikat sikit masuk bilik nk tgk cermin,sarung seluar nk tgk cermin..bak plak suke usik die..buat2 nk jenguk..die xbg..pastu die tutup pintu trus die lock pintu..unfortunately,i cume ajar cara lock,lupe ajar cara unlock..die dri dlm da nangis2..bak n mak da panic..bak da carik tools nk bukak la knob tu kan..sambil die nangis nenek da mcm ahli penyelamat,nenek ckp "yang,jgn nagis cube pusing2kn pintu..lame x lame nasib bole"...

sekian cerita utk mlm ni..nanti senang2 i cerita the goodbye session of us!
love u all...
my neu hair..hehe ptg tdi g stretkan.. :)
ni pon salah satu penyebab mls nk blog,rambut da mengerbang and tension n xde mood...
hope neu hair,mood pon baik la...

muka xnk balik malaysia!!nyampahhhh...

dear all,selamat berpuasa,selamat berbuka,selamat bersahur and selamat berterawih

i wonder she not sad that she is away without me..but mak said "dri die nangis sedih ko xde,lagi buat ko risau kan..biau le die happy,,bapak die pon senang nti:yes mak ur right..my girl is an independant girl..but dlm hati mama nangis,nangis nangis...