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hows ur weekend?

there is a moment when,u feel there is a happy moment..

like u want it last forever..

even its just happen in a weekend..

lets appreciate life

:)

tips happy di weekend:

just book a nice hotel..

even its near xpe..

then enjoyyyyy..

tdo,mkn,chitchat..

just like a boss..

oops,lady boss..

hihi

hugs

love

mwah mwah

i love to blog :)

blogging is kind of my hobby other than this and that..
so welcome back to me :)

agak lame kan i x blog,maybe ade yg x tau yg mak sarah da meninggal..
alfatihah utk hajah jamiah..world greatest mom..
thanks for the alfatihah :)

the most important woman is gone to the Creator,but she will remains forever here in my heart..

Dear Allah,please protect my love :)

my new Me,and im in love my my new self..

ooh well..i told ya,i misssss u all sooo much..
will keep my self update dan stay tuned ok..
love love..
hugs hugs
kiss kiss

the day she went away..

hello again ladies..hows everyone,me alhamdulilah sihat je..
the rest of the family pon all ok..
hei,nk tau x..instead of datuk n nenek cahaya tu jd puan and tuan..
now we may call them by haji kalam,and hajjah jamie tauu...
yes,syukur again mak and bak dpt g haji bsama..walau awal bak da xdpt..
dah jodoh kan,dah rezeki kan..mmg xkemana..
msti ada hikmah di sebalik rite?

he is the love of my heart walauuu,slalu kne argue 2 pendapat,merajuk,berdebat bsama!

each one of them stay in a very special place at my heart..ha,say hi to haji kalam yg npk macho in his ihram!no no no..assalamualaikum pak aji..

one happy news i dah share...and may i share hati yg lara news??
well..i lost dah sumone that also stay special at my heart,siape lg kalau bukan nenek i..
yes..nenek i dah meninggal dah :( mcm cannot jeee terima nk memangil her name with new tittle too..
ARWAH!!..Alfatihah utk nenek...

mmg ade hikmah bak n mak kne g lewat,bak n mak kne g ari sabtu..so a week before nenek masuk hospital..so ahad dah kluar wad,balik rumah pakcik i..nenek meningal selasa...while mak n mak kne g ari sabtu..
alhamdulilah,as anak lelaki bak dpt jugak menyempurnakan urusan pengebumian mak die..urusan semua kat rumah ktorg..so..time mlm..we bgilir2 baca kn nenek yasin smua..pg2..bilal dtg,org kg ktorg which noe nenek well la kann..sampai je trus diorg ckp "ohh nenek korg,paling baik org tua same la dgn datuk kau dlu"..hati siape x tersentuh,bile org yg disyg,disaat akhir pon dikenang atas kebaikan diorg kan..alhamdulilah..even dlm sedih hati senang dgr ckp2 yg mcmtu buat org2 kesayangan i...

the moment mandi kan nenek,me n my sis mmg da ckp ktorg nk sama2 mandikan nenek for her last shower..which means also saat2 hujung menyentuh kulit die badan die..so mandi kan nenek is the most touching moment..masa biase time weekend,mmg ktorg slalu spend time g jmpe nenek..klau lame x dtg,komfem die akn tertanye2 apsal lame x npk siti..apsal sarah lame xdtg,same jgk mcm cucu2 lain die..so time dtg ktorg bwk kn her fav ice cream..ha mmg mcm cahaya nenek niii!!manje sgt..so da mkn2 ice cream,mandikn die skali..mmg la nenek suka kepoci time mandikn die..sejuk la,baik2 tolak die kat wheelchair die la..kjap suruh amik sabun,kjap suruh shampoo rambut die..membebel jee..so hari last is like..oooh nenek,mmg la ini last i touch ur skin...and i wont ever see ur face again..to feel ur warm hugs,to feel ur tender kiss!!

selesai urusan nenek..rasa lega,semua sempurna..sempat la 3hari bak i buatkan tahlil,bacaan yasin utk mak die...wonder why we have such a great close relation dgn nenek,missing her same mcm hilang satu dahan berpaut..sbb nenek la org yg besarkn kitorg..yg urusankn hal ktorg..betapa manja nye cucu2 nenek..g skola berjemput tauuu...balik mkn dah siap,mak blik kje ptg tingal amik jee...

ok la,i lost sumone special of mine..time will cure it for sure..she lost in the world but of cos she is in my heart forever..

*may i share one sweet love story...ok,datuk i meningal 20years ago..such a long long time..oh he is one great man too!!!sedih xdpt bermany2 years dgn die...but still the little memory still fresh in us till now too..SO...between this 20yrs,byk la relatives i yg meningal jgk which one of them adik i,yg meningal masa mak lahirkn die...so..beside datuk ade one more space..which after 20tahun pon,no one filled there,until nenek come and fix that space..so now the husband and wife are together,lame kan datuk tungu nenek,20tahun tauuu!semoga datuk and nenek aman,tenang..love and miss u!kallau ade tentu diorg la org yg suka tgk keletah cicit2 diorg yg mmg pandai amik hati,yg menyakitkn hati,yg mencuit hati..ha mcm2 laa...hehe..

dis girl,tanye my sis "ibu knapa bak baling pasir pada moyang,habis kotor baju moyang"
then mak i,xfollow smpai ke kubur..then balik dri kubur cahaya ckp "nenek,moyang kan atas bukit  nek"..
mak i ckp..msti da besar cahaya akn ingt yg die tgk masa moyang meningal..cahaya baik sgt..mama mmg syg cahaya sgt..xmeragam,pandai bwk diri tau mama xbole nk layan mcm normal day..

i ajar die,bile smpai kubur moyang ckp "asalamualaikum moyang,cahaya dtg ni"..the way die ckp same mcm time ktorg g rumah moyang tgk moyang,beza nye cahaya,cahaya da xdpt lgi kiss seluruh muka..miss her really!

mak and bak inform yg diorg nk g haji,its a rutin in our family..nk g memane msti bgtau nenek..mcm dlu mak klau nk blik kg die kat muar..msti bgtau nenek jgk..mak n nenek da xmcm menantu..mak mmg syg ngn nenek...i adore how iklas nye kasih syg mak pd mak mertua die..i will do the same to my mak mertua,insyaallah..

*i amik gambau many2 as a kenangan masa hari2 terahir nenek,as our family pnye kenang2an..sesekali tgk..mmg mengalir air mata..oohhh,hati ni npk je mcm keras mcm xkesah,mcm xde perasaan..tpi deep inside its so fragile..and can break at anytime tau!!hei hei strong!!
ok gd nite ladies...cahaya kirim slm semua..siap bg kiss mwahhh mwahhhhhhh!!

chipsmore

my mood ni pon same mcm biskut chipsmore kn..
kjap ade kjap x..hheehhee...

nk cerita kn sikit perangan/dialog si cahaya ...

aritu i pick cahaya from school kan..pastu lause ckp..
"today die kumpulkn kwn2 die..dia ajar mereka cakap jerman"..
so lpastu..weekend time we berfamily time..

so papa die ckp:
papa:sayang..who is the new german in cahaya school??
me:no la abang..no one..
papa:cahaya said me..papa,in my school also hae new german..
*so trus i teringt yg lause cite die ajau kwn die jerman...i told papa yg die ajau kwn2 die jerman..so papa said.."cahaya already become a teacher!'..with his proud face..nak2 sbb anak die ajau german

pastu..mase ktorg tgah duduk2 cite2..mikel tanye lgi..
mikel:sayang...lause not look so old rite..
me:why?????
mikel:cahaya said me lause is 74...
me:ooh...ya ya...
mikel:but she not look like she is 74,she looks younger rite..
me:ya abang!

***so much trust he puts in everything that spoke by his lil angel!smpai kdg ape cahaya ckp trus die dtg and fire kan i..geram kdg2 tau.

cahaya pgang hp..papa die dtg tanye..

papa:who u call??
cahaya: vikrammmm..
papa da buat muka x layan..
cahaya:hubby.....are u jeles??
of cos papa trus bla g dapur minum air..hehe


this minah smlm main layang2 dgn papa die..i got many things to do..



mak aji ni..die ckp "nenek..da besau nti..cahaya nk g haji"

us

now super jeles..die suruh i bgun,jgn baring kat papa die..lpas i bgun..trus die baring at the same spot..nak jugakkkk!!

ni la kwn i gaduh,kwn i bmnje,kwn dgr i meluah perasaan etc etc etc



ps-nenek cahaya dpt g mekah tahun ni..soon akn fly..so happy for her,yet so sad that we will miss her!
pss-my nenek,moyang cahaya now masuk hospital..due to sakit tua..so sad and afraid..takut of loosing her... :(

family,small family and friends...

the definition of family FOR ME..consist my father,mother,my sister and my bro including me!
small family...the papa,miss cahaya and me!
friends...me with ida,ct,ain,limah,this that..bla bla bla and YOU!!

so for me,im lucky to have all in one!!my love to my family..as much as i cant measured!!..to my small family..is my passion...and my friends are my joy..my happiness!!

i don like to mixed them as each of them have their own place even at my heart...spending the time only with the family,where everyone is there is saat yg dtungu2..since my sis in bangi..so once we gathered..we laugh non stop!!!having breakfast can be longer,kdg2 sampai ke lunch dok kat meja mkn gelak2 xhenti2..not la all the time gelak..sumtimes we do talk bout the emo talk..biasela family matters...(dear ibu,aku kelakau la yg smlm ko sound dak yaser)

so when i spend time with my lil family pon full of laugh...play jokes to abang misch is my fav..sbb his mr bean attitude plus bile ber collaboration dgn miss cahaya..tergelak2...of cos ade juga when we are 3 we do discuss things that can make one of us emo...or both!!we do talk bout what i dun like bout him,what he dun like bou me..how to discipline our MISS..many2 talk lahhh...

while with friend we mostly ha ha ha ha ha ha ha and ha....from night till the next night..i do believe a friends can b real close after u spend a night sleeping on the same pillow together...the bond real strong..a friend is not a real family but in certain point they can be part of it...im lucky,to own a friends who..is like my friends are...from a real stranger to b part of ur life..how amazing!!!

so....i love them all...i dont want to lose any of them...but of cos num one i love is my MISS,sbb she is the reason that make my life berwarna warni...HAPPY MAMA'S DAY TO ME...

 SINCERLY..
-ur mama-

ps-i need to wish for myself..sbb i tungu2 abang mischa ajar cahaya wish..tpi tungu punya tungu xde jugak...jawapan abang mischa "i never wish to my mother on mother's day..we celebrate international woman day only(mcm eksyen jeee abang mischa ni!!!)..and by the way do u know mother's day is one of the christian celebration"...
-so true,just set in ur heart and niat is the one count...we wish and celebrate mama day in order to b appreciate and become a better mama..amin...

since babah nagena and papa cahaya xde wish us..we cherish ourself out..and u both men,as usual..tolong jade anak dara masing2 yee.. 

that gren green bag hadiah dri ida..die ckp besday no more hadiah..ni advance bday gift!!thankssss dek...

balik bjln,lepas2 luar rumah,mak pon blik knduri join ktorg..
ps-mikel pandai2 die nk short form kn "mak,u come back from kendu?"..mak jwp  "what??"..
i said mikel mind ur language!!!! not kendu..kenduri!!!..he said but kendur sound more interesting...

angels....

mandi in small tub bersama..so ibu kne buat effect air hujan utk diorg..

sunday view....

berusaha minum from cup...

kurang syok laaa mama minum pakai cup..tpi sabau jeee la papa ni mcm2 die nakkk...

send this to abang misch,while die kat dlm bilik nk tdokn cahaya..mase tu i kat luar..die trus dtg tunjuk mak..die ckp.."mak..sarah make black joke to me"...sikit2 mengadu..kalah cahaya!!

do u feel like jumping to ur nearest sungai/parit???

bestnye berendam...aduhhhhhh,rugi mama,ibu n nenek x bawak baju spare..lain la cahaya pakai panty jeee da boleh terjun!!

our man ist away...

my man=bak...

kat my phone book,since the beginning  i assign him as MY MAN,he will b my man now,then n forever...

since 19th,bak g umrah..lpas antar..melepak umah my sis sehari..berhuha huha...

selasa balik je umah...baru tersa how empty umah terasa...

tibe2 mulut bole terckp kat mak "mak,sunyi la umah kan..ni baru bak g 2 minggu..kalau bak xde mcmne la sunyi nye kan mak"...mak ckp aah,sunyiiiii sgt....

tuan umah,dat nite.. org dtg utk hantar2 doa utk bak...hantar kirim slm,almost  pkul 12..dis tuan rumah,mcm tgah layan org mase hari raya..exited!!

the morning doa selamat,jemput imam utk bace doa and  4/5 kwn2 g surau bak...

dis time touching,mase pakcik jenal(on left)bg ucapan on behalf tuan uma..
die ckp..doakn,halalkan mkn minum...

doa by imam,azan by pakcik jenal...
bak sampai keluar air mata..
mmg la sedih
tangisan kegembiraan..since before beribu kali org suruh die g umrah/haji...
tpi kali ni..die sndri decided to go to rumah ALLAH by his own heart...

bak g ngn kakak nye..the close one to him in the family...
mak x g due o her health condition..

kwn mengedik bersama..kak amira

otw...

@klia...peluk bak puas2 cahaya,nti rindu..2minggu x jmpe...

2 beradik ni pon berhindustan laaaa dgn jaya nya..bergolek2,mcm la klia tu datuk diorg yg punya..huhu

fruits time,ibu always ade bekalan fruits..kakak tompang sekaki ye ibu..ops bukan sekaki,dua2 kaki pon die tumpang..

stunt girl of the day..
mentang2 dah bjalan..menjadik2 kejaan nk mengajau die keliling klia..
nagena plak buat mcm "klia ini ana yg punya"

ade je bodi die,kepala die bergerak nk buat sesuatu....

enjoying their few minutes time before datuk fly like a bird

si kakak...

nenek dont sedih2,kan bak da ckp..
bnda 1st die nak buat kat tanah suci nanti is mendoakn nenek...
supaya nti bak dpt g haji ngn nenek...
insyaallah ye nek :)

my sis ckp..kat gambau ni bak npk comel...
iyelaaaa..comelll nau!!!!cute je bak kannn???

bye2 bak...
jangan lupe belikan cahaya n nagena jubah comel2,utk raya nanti...
:)

i said to bak..bak,xpayah nk beli2 kan kitorg ape2..iyela bak mmg same like me..bjln bab nk beli2 souvernier, out and blank..dri die terpikir2 n rase bsalah x belikan kan,baik kitorg buat confession awal2 yg  WE R OK,with or without...

random updatesssss!!!

back from a short break...(2 days plus weekend..so total 4 days)..4 days,i consider as long holiday...
syiokkkk...mood nk g keje blom ON!!!....
i update dlu...supaya kalau mood off terus,nta2 semingu plak blog x update.. :)

berkenalan dgn pokok semalu...

same la...saye ponnn pemalu juga..

very meaningful pic..for my father die mmg agak xde manje2 ngn mak nye...sbb awal2 da skola asrama,bak pulak jenis yg ske buat kje sndri...tpi bile da tua2 ni...mcm ni lahhhh...
aritu bak jmpe nenek utk inform die nk g umrah,mintak doa restu nenek..
nenek yg tgah mabuk kepala..bak picit2 kepala mak die..
pastu nenek tarik tgn bak..cium2 bak..trus landing mcm baby mcmni kat lengan anak nye...
i tgk rase nk nangis...
me=very sensitive and very emotional
are all cancerians like me????

while cahaya,i spot her standing next to her 2nd cousin...
she was rili impress with that butterfly...
she adore art so much...same as Papa...

from an apple to a flower...
mom also kinda ino art to..
erkkkkk????
me n art...kurang..
but i love to see all the beautiful thingssss...

while i search for healthy menu...i terjumpe satu menu..very easy...
but the original one,die guna salmon...tpi my fish stock da out..kite tukarkn ke chicken ok??
the fish i rebut with garlic n onion..the aroma so menusuk hidung...
then boil potato n spinach...
da poil tu...i ketuk potatoes pkai lesung batu..da penyek2...masuk kn butter and mixed the potato n spinach...
the taste...yumssss!!!
i pon suke!!

breakfast on weekend mmg lmbt...papa wont allow me to wake cahaya,he want cahaya to wake by  herself...
sampai ke tengahari la jwp nye!!!
pagi cahaya ske simple breakfast..kalau ngn papa..roti,cereal or oat ke..with milo or juice..
even klau with nenek n datuk nye pon..die nk mkn capati or tosai jeee...

one hungry man

papa die ske belimbing..so melayu now tekak papa..dah  geng ngn mama...

during our mkn2,mula2 bgurau last2 mama sentap..merajuk...
masuk bilik kunci diri sndri..papa n cahaya pon keluar la berdua..
mak ckp "ha tu la,bergurau2 last2 bergaduh"...
its ok,g leeee..mama tolong la nenek packing baju datuk die...

balik,menangis...ceritakan mcmne she got some pangkat kat siku die..
die tgah main slide,bile x gerak die push pakai siku die..
melecet..sian die..suh mama sapu minyak..
carik2 minyak npk bio oil..ok pakai bio oil!

after the rain,matahari nk muncul balik...
nenek ckp ha nk jemur baju la,matahari da keluar...
cahaya ckp...nk tgk matahari..
nenek bwk die..die terkelip2 mata tahan terik matahari tu..
last2 nenek ltak air dlm bekas suruh die tgk puas2...
wah nenek da mcm cikgu sains!!

ps-every moment in our life real precious kannn???yg gaduh2 tu pon precious jugak...